Every year, for the past five years, I write a personal reflectional based on the year as it comes to an end. I find these reflections very helpful not only understand what sort of person I have grown into but it also helps me plan and make changes so I can be a stronger person. I can more easily see if I am measuring up once it is all written out. Because my time here at SHJC Library is almost over, and so will my consistent Internet access, I am writing the reflection early this year. This is not all of it.... but I hope you enjoy it.
First of all, this year is exactly what I heard it would be but nothing what I thought it would be. It is a year of change. Of course, I thought change had to do with finishing school and getting a job but it has been so much more. When I think of the who I was in December 2006 I am a stranger to her. I think, walk, and breathe differently. I am more mature, less winy, more proactive and responsible for my own actions (note I said MORE). I have clearer, redefined priorities. I have had many personal victories.
This year wanted to be a bitter year. One tragedies after the other has sought to overwhelm me. With the support of close friends and loved ones, and the wisdom of the Always Faithful Friend (Jesus) was I was able to mourn, then pick up the pieces, look up and focus on His goodness instead of obvious circumstances. Death of a loved one and deaths of friends. Loved ones getting sick. Loved ones losing jobs. Friends moving away. Friends moving on. Academic failure. Debt. Car trouble. Divorce. Broken agreements. All have caused storm after storm wanting to make me bitter. Instead, I have managed to be grateful the process and more confidant that my life isn't about me. I also learned it isn't even about the needs that I see, either.
In 2007 I have succeed to be the one major thing I wanted since I knew myself, even before I knew what it was. I am my Father's Daughter. I am a Princess of Zion. Now if I can only walk in that.