Tired?

I feel tired. I want to just sit around and talk but I have nothing to talk about....
Maybe it is because I am just a few days a way from finish closing my first year as a teacher. I sort of feel out of sorts... Not hopeless or anything, just as though I want my life to start now. Oh, wait, this is my life... It has started. Very good.

Lately, beauty has been a topic of conversation between my sista-friends and I. I came to the conclusion that there are three things about beauty. 1. We can be beautiful, 2. look beautiful and/0r 3. feel beautiful. I think feeling beautiful is important but not a priority. It is feeling good about your looks, you style, your manners, etc...

Looking beautiful is not that important because it is subjective. I get this all the time. Some people think I am just beautiful while other keep wanted to fit me. People see it as important though and they often judge you on their own perceptive of it.

My goal, who I want to be, is a person who is beautiful. I don't want to be the cynic I am so close to becoming right now, but rather I want to be alive with beauty. I want to be fun, hopeful, helpful, happy and just plain beautiful. I want to be innocent and clean, but wise and understanding. I want to be noble and cause others to be noble too. I want people breath easy because I am around. I want life to be abundant and full. I want to be colourful and strong, but sweet and lovely.

So, as I walk in this place of redefinition and change, don't expect too much from me, just you are free to witness the person I am becoming.... The Beauty that I am being.