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08 September 2008

Independence

This evening I was talking with a teacher friend on the ferry. She teaches at a different school and has a different schedule so this is the first since school started that we have met on our commute to work. She like so many women that I know is pregnant right now. When I mentioned how strong she is to teach while being pregnant she laughed, "Soh... yu xpec' wa maan fu mantan mi?" I laughed back and said yes... that is what I would do. "Noh soh if yu noh yus tuw ya indeependence."

That made me muse on that thought. While I look forward to building my family, finding a nice man that I can trust and lean on is something that I look forward to. I look forward to having some one to take care of me as I take care of him. I want him to drive for me, fix the car, chop the yard and all those other things that I don't think about....

I guess this longer for dependence is because since I was 12 I have pretty much been on my own mentially. Since I was 14 I have worked during the summer to get school supplies and pay tution. I used to babysit during the weekend to help my widow-single mother. While I was still in high school I become the main breadwinner after my mom had an accident, the doctor went to Guatemala, and my other brother was struggling to build his new life in the US. Mom has worked odd jobs throughout the years but she hasn't held a job for a long period of time, since I was a teenager she has left my morals and habits for me to decided. House hold things, have for the most part have fallen on whosoever cares...

I am not writing all about this to cry and woe so that I can get your symathy.... poor little white girl.... but because as our nation's Independence Day is on us, the thougth of Independence has been on my mind. Although freedom is a wonderful thing I look forward to a day when I can be inter-dependent. Independence is a lot of stress.

6 comments:

Domanick Fabro said...

sad thing is the type of guy you describe to want.... they are all taken and of a dying breed.

Everything has a reason why said...

LOl- i had to laugh at that one Domanick...however it is true Beth.. men aren't born that perfect the good news is that we can mold them to be that way...I do pity single mothers.. and at times am proud of them.. since I find myself in the category(read my blog) i say Power to independent single moms!!!

neomesuff said...

Quite an experience you had there..i guess we all should live by the day..and go by the flow ;-)

Reema said...

Living independently is really a lot of stress..cooking, managing chores and finances. Its not bad to seek a partner for life and wanting to get married and be taken care of in few of the things.

Anonymous said...

This is how I tink about it.Ummm, shouldn't a teacher know that 'mentially' isn't a word?

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