On the Road Again

" You are naive about a lot of things in life.... Someday you will change your mind and I hope you do not grow cynical about life in the process."

Once my favourite teacher old me that a long Sixth Form day ago. It was in my last semester English class when we were discussing a current event concerning family structures. I had refuted an idea by stating that I would like to have 5 children some day. One of my wise, older returning-to-school-to-save-my-job peers laughed and said something about good luck to that and how'll I would need a rich man for that. I made some blissful remark about how everything would be OK with love, hard work and sacrifice.....

Years later.... During I was chatting with my Sweet about what we would like in the future. We both agreed that only a couple of kids and lots of travelling would be a nice ideal. We didn't set any concrete plans but we both agreed that small is good. I was thinking about that just now. What happened to me? I'm a surrendering to the idea that life is hard???? What happened to the blissful, trusting me? I think I am still there, but what caused the change? Another thing.... if I can change my mind about something like this.... suppose I change my mind again, down the road when I am IN it????

So this it is. In honour of my ideal and the person I set out to become. Whatever happens, and however hard life really is, I will look up, trust God that everything will work out, and I will not lose my head..... I have changed. I will change. Process is about changing, but while I change I will make sure I tell myself, in whatever changes I make and whatever goals I make, I chose to be a hopeful person, I will not be naive but I will be trusting.

That is the person I chose to be.

UB

Hello everyone, I am a student of University of Belize now. I am an English major. Both things I never thought I would do but here I am doing it. It is going ok but I never have enough time to do anything well. That includes blogging. That bothers me because I want to do my best in EVERYTHING I do.

I have two struggles in this season of my life. I have been feeling very nostalgic. I miss the place that I stopped referring to as home a long time ago. I miss the huge ceder trees and my biological family. I miss going to the national parks and taking hikes. I never used to hike much and I rarely got together with my family but I still miss it. My Sweety says I should go for a visit. I would love to but students don't have that kind of money and besides, what I miss is probably not there. I think I miss something else..... what could it be, what could it be.

Also, I have not been doing any type of writing lately. Que Lastima! That is so sad. I love writing. I am trying to write now, but unfortunately I have to hurry to class and I feel flat.... I probably sound flat too. But I am not really flat.